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Ding... SURVEY! [Aug. 21st, 2006|04:44 pm]
69 Questions to END the Summer

1. Are you in a relationship?
Not since last May. It was a well deserved break.

2. Do you hate more than 3 people?
Hate is a word I try not to use unless it's towards veggies, spiderwebs, or the Magnum XL.

3. How many houses have you lived in?

4. What is your favorite candy bar?

5. What are your favorite shoes?
Lightweight shoes with good support, like Sketchers or Spalding.

6. Have you ever tripped someone?
Only a flaggit.

7. What is your least favorite subject this year?
It's a tie between "get a job" and "well what do you think?"

8. What is your favorite subject this year?
Um... I can only be creative so many times before my magical belt from another dimension loses it's power in this world.

9. Do you own a Britney Spears CD?
NO! *Cries* How dare you insult my musical tastes by asking that question.

11. Name something that's always on your mind?
Right now or always? I'm a guy so #1 is given, over the past couple days though it's been... yeah.

12. What is your favorite music genre?
Alt-Rock/Grunge and Punk.

13. How old are you?

14. What time were you born?
8-something am.

15. Do you like beer?
It either has to be thick (dark usually) beer or Light.

16. Have you ever made a prank call?

17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own?
Well, I have a CD case I still need to throw away (someone else's CD,) from Gwen Steffani's last album (which sucks.) I'd be really embarassed if someone saw that crap and thought I owned it.

18. Are you sarcastic?
Noooo, I'm NEVER Sarcastic.

19. What is your favorite color?
Hues of Blues.

20. How many watches do you own?

21.Summer or winter?
Winter unless I have something to do. Working during the summer sucks.

22. Spring or fall?

23. What is your favorite color to wear?

24. Pepsi or Sprite?

25. What color is your cell phone?
Silver and Silver.

26. Where is your second home?
Colin and Mary's or Matt and Carla's.

27. Have you ever slapped someone
With a hockey Goalie stick...

28. Have you ever had a cavity?
You don't want to know.

29. How many lamps are in your bedroom?

30. How many video games do you own?
Uh... I can't count them all. Everything from titles like Merchant Colony for a 386 and Ladybug for Coleco Vision to Kingdom Hearts 2 for PS2 and Morrowind: Oblivion for WinXP.

31. What was your first pet?
A dog.

32. Have you ever had braces?
Nope, but I've had a bionator. Bionator = worse than braces and WAAAY worse than a dinky little retainer.

33. Do looks matter?
Looks help, but I'm not playing the game anymore.

34. Do you use Chapstick?
From time to time.

36. American Eagle or Abercrombie?
American Eagle... Rarely though. I hate shirts that have their own name on them.

37. Are you too forgiving?
Anyone who knows me well enough over the past 3 years will say YES without hesitation.

38. How many children do you want?
Until I can name one after my father... however many that takes.

40. What is your favorite breakfast?
Anything that isn't part of some Diet Meal.

41. Do you own a gun?
A high powered Air Rifle (don't call it a bb gun cause this will shred wood.)

42. Have you ever thought you were in love?
Yes, and I know I had it...

43. When was the last time you cried?
It's been awhile now... Unless you count movies, cause then it was a couple weeks ago.

44. What did you do 3 nights ago?
Hung out with Colin and Mary, Dave, and met one of the coolest girls ever. (For the moment anyways.)

45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden?
Uh... I can't remember.

46. Have you ever called your teacher mom?
No, but in Jr. High we had a hall monitor that everyone called "mom."

47. Have you ever been in a castle?
Yes, over in europe. Can't remember which one though.

48. What are your nicknames?
John Top... wow how imaginative.

49.Do you know anyone named Bertha?

50. Have you ever been to Kentucky?
Yup... their chicken sucks.

51. Do you own something from Banana Republic?
I don't know what that is, so no.

52. Are you thinking about somebody right now?

53. Have you ever called someone Boo?
Called someone Boo? Why would you call someone that? Boo is an extension of Bo, which came from Boyfriend.. so I'm still confused how that works. (Besides, it's sounds stupid calling someone "Boo" anyways.)

54. Do you smoke?
Yep. :\

55. Do you own a diamond ring?

57. Do you dye your hair?
I'll bleach it, maybe do Black again, but nothing else turns out right.

58. Does anyone like you?
If you mean is interested in "that" way, I hope it's as true as I hear.

60. What were you doing May of 1994?
I know we were camping, but I can't remember anything significant.

61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD?
Remember what was said about that Brittney Spears stuff? Same responce here.

62. McDonald's or Wendy's?
McDonald's for the fries, Wendy's for everything else. ('Cept those cinni-melts are pretty good.)

63. Do you like yourself?
To be serious, I don't. I can't stand myself. I only like SOME things I can do and I like myself as long as other people like me, but if they don't who cares. XD

65. Favorite feature of the opposite sex?
OMG! Eyes are killer, which is why I try to NOT look at them and stare at boobs instead. (I'm serious.)

66. Are you afraid of the dark?
Not in the slightest.

67. Have you ever eaten paste?
No, but I knew a kid who did... he said it tasted like boogers and went on to prove that.

68. Do you have a webcam?
Yes, but it sucks and I rarely use it.

69. Have you ever stripped?
Not that I'm going to tell, but I might have.
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Yo! [Aug. 20th, 2006|08:20 pm]
Yeah, it's been a long time since I've updated this thing, but I've been way too busy. I mostly use myspace as a communication hub (NOT as a friend whore... I refuse to accept people I don't know or who don't show an interest in knowing me,) www.myspace.com/johntop. There's been a TON of things that have happened recently, some I can say, some I can't because of... reasons. :P

I've been a churchie lately. Mostly helping out the youth group and such, trying to find my place here and there, and I think I know what that is. I'm very open to people and I might just be one of those "on the road" kind've guys. You meet someone, mention something, and get the thought process going. I know as far as evangelicals go I'm no where near their calibur... I just don't feel that much of a drive. I do know where my strengths lie, and I use those. Working with the kdis and in other people's lives.

I've also technically been unemployed for the last year, surviving on threads and bread, but I do it. Except for my computers I don't have too much, and I like that. Minimalist, definately. Money has never been a drive for me, and it probably never will be. Unfortunately, I've had a sudden urge (hint hint,) that maybe I should step it up a little. Sure I may have gotten a job working for a friend, but I know I'm going to need a little extra. If anything, the spark has been lit and I now have another goal.

Speaking of goals, I don't know how, or why, but my ideals have been completely revamped about certain things lately... I mean VERY recently. I see where I am lacking and all of a sudden I know I have to step up in order to keep up, and that's exactly what I needed... a HUGE thank you again.

My friends are all getting (or have gotten) married and I'm scared pantless. I don't really know if I should expect something, or just blow it off, but it's WEIRD being the only one left in bachelorland. (My spelling is aweful cause I'm thinking of 12 things at once.) I don't know how I feel about leaving it behind yet, but from the recent experience I had, I'm quite capable.
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Doctor's Orders [Mar. 21st, 2006|04:52 pm]
Leave the scabs alone and the wound will heal over time. You pick the scab and it causes a scar... quit causing scars you dolt! Any idiot knows that.
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I hate being exposed... [Jan. 17th, 2006|11:50 pm]
but at least I feel comfortable exposing my flaws around the College group, and you know what, it made me care less about my "fears."

Being Emotional.

That one really sucks. Cause like, when you're extremely emotional, and you get upset cause you're getting emotional, it just makes it worse. Girls like the bad boys, not guys like me, so I ended up fighting it for quite awhile... you know, playing the macho guy. "I don't cry... anymore." Yeah, that worked until last night, and then today i decided, "you know what, if they don't want me it's their problem. If they'd rather have a guy who, -instead of paying attention to them and listening to their "day at work" and sharing a misty-eyed hug during a pet's death,- would rather have a beer and football and sex when they want it, dinner ready when they get home, and absolute quiet when they are trying to hear Drew and Mike's "yet-another-version-of-the-fart-song," then so be it. Get away from me.

Another thing, although I don't think I'm ever going to get over it, is the fear of spider webs... iiiiiiiiiiccccckkk.

For all you romantic's out there:

1 Corinthians 13:13

There are three things that will endure – faith, hope, and love – and the greatest of these is love.

I think I proved my point.
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OMG! I Cried... [Jan. 16th, 2006|11:07 pm]
So, I am hanging out with my old friend Matt again, after not seeing him for years, and during our weekly hangout he goes "I'm been thinking, and I wanna know, will you be my best man?" I came soooo close to crying at Rams Horn it wasn't even funny, (ok, so maybe it was.) I mean... after everything we've been through, together, and during our own seperate travels through life... I just can't explain it with words.

So, I already know some of what I have planned (which was kind've obvious knowing Matt,) but I really have no idea what I'm gonna do, say, or anything like that. I'm sitting here thinking "this is one of the most important times in Matt's life, and he asked me to be a special part of it... and I'm an idiot!"

Well, I know that I'm A) going to end up getting choked up, B) end up getting him a little choked up, and C) avoid catching the garter at all costs, (I already caught one... how many more do I really need to catch to get the point?)

Thinking about the entire thing makes me want to read corinthians, like, all the way through. I picked out a card that brought tears to my eyes (and theirs,) at colin and mary's wedding, and I know I'm going to be asked to say something at one point or another.

In the end though, I'm probably just going to go to sleep, and forget about it until he bring it up again... when i'll completely freak out.

Yeah, I'm probably making this a bigger deal than it really is, but this shadow of a past come to glory doesn't exactly happen everyday.
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Yeah, I found this very appropriate for me in a funny, twisted way. [Jan. 12th, 2006|02:44 am]
I had to let people listen to it. If you know me, you'd know how hilariously funny this REALLY is. If anyone can direct Colin to give this a listen (hint hint...) please let him know that this is NOT going to be my theme song.

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Thanks to my .j2 friends, and others... [Jan. 6th, 2006|07:28 am]
Stupid Deer

This guy deserved it...

Photo booth

Trick or Owned
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My Cowboy Bebop Song [Jan. 5th, 2006|05:09 am]

Quiz Result Provided By: theOtaku.com.

What's Your Cowboy Bebop Song?

Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.
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Ok... so hopefully I'm popular... [Jan. 4th, 2006|02:53 am]
Ok, Straight up, I'm trying to get votes to get on a TV show. It's a casting call for hollywood or whatever, I don't really care. I just think it'd be neat to get to the 3rd round (actual interviews,) and see what it's like. To vote for me, go here and type;


In the Audition Number box, (that's my audition number,) along with your e-mail address (a real one that you'll have to confirm.) I'm trying to establish a "fanbase," basically... a popularity contest. If you do this, I'll love you forever... heck, I'll even try to mention you (as long as you let me know that you voted for me :P) on air if I make it that far. If that isn't enough to convince you, I'll have your babies. Anyways, here's the link... (remember, 2203 )


Thanks a ton!
John Top

P.S. Get your friends to vote for me too. Heck, get your entire family to vote for me.
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So I'm cruel... [Jan. 4th, 2006|01:03 am]
Ok, the beginning i only chuckled at the first part... the last part... with "Arnold"... I laughed my ass off at.


"Metallic fanny packs!"
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So I'm 10 years old... what else is new? [Jan. 4th, 2006|12:36 am]
You Are 10 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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Happy New Year! [Jan. 1st, 2006|06:34 am]
So, 2005 over and done with, and another year in the book of done. I've been entertaining myself alot recently by playing Guitar Hero (Merry belated Christmas everyone btw,) and I can tell you it's pretty dang hard once you get up to expert. I mean, my fingers are pretty fast (at least that's what she said,) but for some reason they won't co-operate THAT well. The solos in "Bark at the Moon" are insane, as well as other songs like "Crossroads," and a couple others. Other than that, just trying to entertain myself till the winter is over.

I am planning on a personal road trip this spring or summer, whenever I get enough money, to Ohio and Virginia to visit some friends that I've met before. I'm kind've excited about it really. I'm spending 2 days at Cedar Point, a day at Geauga Lake, and hopefully a day or so out further east, (we'll see about that second part *crosses fingers*.) I'm hoping to plan another trip in late summer/early fall, but it won't be as long (see: expensive,) as the first one. Probably just hit up Cedar Point or Geauga Lake again, that or go visit my friend's relatives in DC.

I got the job I've been trying to get for a few years now. I'm working Crowd Control for The Palace. My first day? Lynard Skynard... boy was that a rough show. The worst all year or so they say, but it didn't seem TOO bad. Eight people ended up being escorted out (by force,) one by me and my supervisor, and I can tell you one thing... don't EVER look a drunk skinhead in the eye, it just pisses him off like a bull seeing red. Unfortunately, normal psychology doesn't work on primates. Most of the night I was at doors, wanding people (eat that harry potter... I get paid to use a wand.) I can tell you one thing I'm going to hate about the job... single middle-aged women. I got felt up sooo many times I nearly cried. I know I'm going to end up earning the nickname "Boy Toy," as it seems to be what most of the patrons seem to call me. I need to get in a car accident or dunk my head in a chipper shredder to prevent that.

Tonight was the Jr/Sr High New Year's party, and I have to say it went extremely well. The funniest part is the joke we played on the kids. Since november, every kid had a chance to win "iPoints" depending on the different things they went to. Classes, dinners, lock-ins, and on New Year's we would hold a raffel to give away a 20gb iPod. Well, we worked that into a little lesson as well. "There is no iPod." It actually went off REALLY well. We got the reactions we were expecting (a little let down, but not angry,) and Mickey (a tiny kid who's parents keep fighting him about going to church,) actually got the message before we said it. something like, "It isn't about coming to get something, it's the things you do in the meantime, because there's something better that we've already got." Well, he said that and we revieled that there was an iPod, and held the raffle. Some kids had like 10 tickets, some 15, Mickey only had 4... and guess who won? MICKEY! I mean, if there ever was an interesting point to have every "I" dotted and evert "T" crossed by an event, that was one of them.

As you can tell, my life has gotten better despite the shit-storm I went through near the end of the summer. I can see now that if I would've ended up doing what I "wanted" to do at the moment, instead of what is really rewarding in the long run, my life would be absolute crap right now. Happy New Year everyone.
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I hope you fellow WoW heads read this... [Dec. 28th, 2005|01:42 am]
This means you Matt, Mary, Drew, Jessa, Colin... and others whom I have forgotten about due to late night brian drain.


The internet is for porn. (This is about the only good thing to come out of the horde.)
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(no subject) [Dec. 27th, 2005|06:48 am]
A friend of mine posted THIS QUIZ on his LJ... I have a feeling it was created by someone with not only a lack of knowledge in CHristianity, but ALL religions in general. As a christian, you'd find it difficult to even answer the first question. SOOOO... Here's my answers to most of those questions.

1. What best describes how you feel about belief in God / religion?
- There's too much hard evidence and impossibility of "sheer coincidence" for God to be just a "belief."

2. You think God:
- Is responsible for our creation.

3. What's the closest to truth?
- Your Soul will survive death.

4. What viewpoint are you most likely to take issue with?
- All religions have equal amounts of truth and corruption (Don't make me prove you wrong.)

5. You are most interested in:
- Serving God's purpose while you are on earth

Most of these answers just made me cringe, especially answering thing according to how it was written... "believer" is just crap. Christianity has far too much proof to fall in that "general" category. Read any of Lee Strobel's "Case for ..." books and you will see there's far too much historic proof that can be found NO WHERE ELSE for the bible to be fake. Atheist historians even use the bible to locate important areas and cultures that existed and were lost. Want me to prove it? Read those "Case for..." books.

Now, I'm not about to approach each and every person and beat them on the head, or even one person. If you want to ask, ask, if you don't, I'll leave you alone only mentioning things when I feel good about it. I made a solid vow not to drive people away by telling them things when they don't want to hear it. Remember, this is writing, you can choose to stop reading whenever you wished, but you didn't.
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You haven't seen cool... [Nov. 21st, 2005|11:50 am]
Until you've seen this


Not sure what song, but I BELIEVE that's Manheim Steamroller music. (A Christmas group that's known for their laser light shows.) I believe they have a computer set up to route frequencies, triggering relays that activate the voltage outputs for the lights... not sure though, me and my dad are brainstorming to duplicate this in years to come. God this would be cool, especially pissing off your neighbors.
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I know I shouldn't find these funny... [Nov. 7th, 2005|05:17 am]
And I should try and keep my humor a little cleaner... but I laughed my ass off at some of these.

Q.) What doesn't belong in this list: Meat, Eggs, Wife, and Blowjob?
A.) Blowjob: You can beat your meat, eggs or wife, but you can't beat a

Q.) Why does a penis have a hole in the end?
A.) So men can be open minded.

Q.) What's the speed limit of sex?
A.) 68 because at 69 you have to turn around.

Q.) What does a Rubix cube and a penis have in common?
A.) The longer you play with them, the harder they get.

Q.) What's the difference between your paycheck and your dick?
A.) You don't have to beg your wife to blow your paycheck!

Q.) Three words to ruin a man's ego...
A.) "Is it in?"

Q.) What do you get when you cross Raggedy Ann and the
Pillsbury Dough
A.) A red headed bitch with a yeast infection.

Q.) How can you tell when an auto mechanic just had sex?
A.) One of his fingers is clean.

Q.) What do you do with 365 used rubbers?
A.) Melt them down make a tire, and call it a Goodyear.

Q.) What does bungee jumping and hookers have in common?
A.) They both cost a hundred bucks and if the rubber breaks, you're
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Today was fun... [Nov. 3rd, 2005|04:23 am]
So I decided to pop in FMJ (Full Metal Jacket) and watch it all the way through this time, (yes, I'm the only movie nut who hasn't yet seen the entire film to celebrate and rant about it's greatness.) Let me just say I'm not sleeping tonight. It's not a matter of what the movie portrays, but how it has me thinking about life. In the beginning, I really associate myself with Joker, until the sock incident, then I become Piles. I've felt that that quite often in my life, felt like dishing out what has been "bestowed" upon me by my "superiors," but I refrain... I just take it in stride.

Then the actual movements take place, it's actually like a telling of two stories in one. They enter combat and instead of reflecting myself on characters I see humanity at it's lowest, and again at it's highest, time and time again. I look at life and I think that it's just a series of moments, and wonder what I'm going to do spending each one of them. I know there are a few people out there who I'd love to spend more time with (I hope you know who you are,) but for some reason, I'm in the battle right now with things pointing me in every direction, and I'm just begging for some backup to come along.

Yeah, funny what a little movie like that can get you thinking about. More things came up in my mind that are just too messed up to remember, but if I do, ya'll know about them.

Other news, I ended up treating the youth group (Jr. and Sr. High,) to some laser tag. It was quite fun, or at least that's what they're telling me. I dunno, I kind've fell bad because I beat the crap out of them. No matter which team I went on it was like the other team just bent over and said "go ahead and stick it in." LoL! What an aweful way to explain that but yeah, I was the hammer that smashed down with force... and I wasn't even trying.

In the morning, me and Bryan sat down and talked about some verses and stuff, and eventhough I know it's there all the time, I have to remind myself that it IS in there. "Those who are first shall be last, and those who are last shall be first," or something like that. I give and give and give, and people seem to like to take, and that doesn't really bother me most of the time. I've done that since I was before a Christian, and sometimes, I feel like I'm gonna snap. I know my life has always been a giving one, more personally tham materialistic wise. Anyone who knows me can honestly say that I'll drop my life to help with theirs, and several can tell you I've already done that for them.

I'm not playing myself up, but it just seems like that never goes away. I'm always strong enough to get stepped on and still give afterwards. I have small fear in the fact that I might "lose out" on the deal, but I don't think that I will in the long run. Now I just need to string all this shit together and make sense of it. :P
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Did You Know? [Oct. 13th, 2005|10:35 pm]
That it takes nearly a whole day (24 hours) to burn one hundred and two cd's? I know, I am almost finished.
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Men strike back. [Sep. 23rd, 2005|10:47 pm]
How many men does it take to open a beer?
None. It should be opened when she brings it.
Why is a Laundromat a really bad place to pick up a woman?
Because a woman who can't even afford a washing machine will probably never be able to support you.
Why do women have smaller feet than men?
It's one of those "evolutionary things" that allows them to stand closer to the kitchen sink.
How do you know when a woman is about to say something smart?
When she starts a sentence with "A man once told me..."
How do you fix a woman's watch?
You don't. There is a clock on the oven.
Why do men fart more than women?
Because women can't shut up long enough to build up the required pressure.
If your dog is barking at the back door and your wife is yelling at the front door, who do you let in first?
The dog, of course. He'll shut up once you let him in.
What's worse than a Male Chauvinist Pig?
A woman who won't do what she's told.
I married a Miss Right.
I just didn't know her first name was Always.
Scientists have discovered a food that diminishes a woman's sex drive by 90%.
It's called a Wedding Cake.
Why do men die before their wives?
They want to.
Women will never be equal to men until they can walk down the street with a bald head and a beer gut, and still think they are sexy.
In the beginning, God created the earth and rested. Then God created Man and rested. Then God created Woman.
Since then, neither God nor Man has rested.
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I don't know why... [Sep. 19th, 2005|11:19 pm]
but I'm THIS close to fucking flipping right the hell out.

Don't tell me I don't know my shit.
Don't let me be alone.
Don't try to convince me otherwise in my beliefs.
Don't push my life in a direction for your gain, while making me ignore mine.
Don't fuck with me, plain and simple.

Other than that I need a new fucking job. MS is boring as hell and there's no way I'm ever going to make more money than I am now unless I get bumped up, but I'm not going to deal with that kind've responsibility. It's bullshit as it is. I wish some things job-wise in the past could have gone better, but I view most of them as not being my fault. Some of them were, but not this time.

I feel alone in the world as well. Like, I have no one around me, and I find that I'm talking to myself now. Phone is cool and all I just feel detached, almost like I'm going back to a primal root. I just can't stand anything right now and yet I feel content with it. Funny how I'm happy to live in what I view to be bullshit.
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Quarters... [Sep. 2nd, 2005|09:29 pm]
There's a drinking game called quarters. You bounce a quarter off the table and have to land it in the cup. The person who is also playing has to take a drink/shot if the other person makes it in, and you keep going until you miss. All I have to say about this is 1) Pray you go first against this guy, and 2) DON'T MISS!

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MTX Jackhammer... [Aug. 27th, 2005|01:47 am]
Speaker Class: Subwoofer.

Dimensions: 22" Tall x 23 " wide

Weight: 369 Lbs

Power Requirements: 8,500 watts.

How to achieve this power: 5 MTX Thunder Series Amplifiers, 6 capacitors, 3 car batteries.

Volume: Over 30 db (decibles... that's louder than an airplane boys and girls.)
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So I got the job... [Aug. 23rd, 2005|07:08 pm]
So I passed the drug test and I now have a job at Mickey Shores making 7.73 an hour before commission. Thing is... I feel like I hate it already. I'm gonna do it, just because I need the money, but I'm still going to apply at other places. It's going to fucking suck if I do get hired somewhere I feel good about. I always hate leaving a place. I feel like these people are never going to like my character because I feel that I need to take care of my own wants and needs before serving them.

So off I go, tomorrow at fucking 9am in the morning, and I get to start a new job.
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I hate these kind've of dogs... [Aug. 19th, 2005|03:00 am]
But I want this one!


Holy shit this dog kicks ass!
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Computer check #1 [Aug. 13th, 2005|01:33 pm]
So far, on the returned computer, a 20gb drive has so many bad sectors on it there's now only 8 gigs useable because of bad sectors. Thanks for beating up my shit.

Other than that I'm kind've getting worried... I've put in a TON of applications lately and I haven't heard back from a single one of them. I mean, am I doomed to have to work at Meijers or K-Mart? I really don't want to go back to those places... they were hell when I was 14 and I don't want to do it again.

Another thing I'm trying to figure out is how the fuck am I surviving? I'm almost comfortable being fucking flat broke, eating little to nothing, and only going out and doing things where my friends pay for me (I'm not proud of it...) once a month if that. I need to either get some kind've drive going to want some fucking awesome worldy posessions or something and get my ass motivated... but why? Because it's the thing to do? Cause everyone else does it? I know things that I'd like to accomplish and they're taking shape (slowly,) but what's the hurry?

Eh, who fucking cares. I'm comfortable being on the bottom of the food chain. At least I know I'm there, I'll admit it, and I won't take advantage of generosity to make it seem like I've got more than I do. Hopefully Colin's plan goes into action before I get too involved again here, so I can really start somewhere else.
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YES!!!!!!!111 [Aug. 10th, 2005|03:52 pm]
Ok, I got my things back. One chapter over, topped off with a nice celebration. Unfortunately, one of my shirts has "questionable stains" on it, so I called in the hazard unit for detox. If you can't tell, I'm in a GREAT fucking mood, NOTHING can bring me down. She doesn't have my CD's, and I publicly acknowledge that she does not... OMG THIS FEELS SO GOOD! That bitch is so gone from my life now it's wonderful. I just have to call her step-brother (shouldn't be a problem,) to get my x-box things back. Long story there, (short version: I was stupid and thought I'd be around for awhile.)

Some things in my life is going to continue changing now. Being more open and shit is definately a turnabout. I don't know if you've ever felt that kind've relief before, almost like I was emotionally constipated and straining for the end, which came, and now I'm just shittin happy all over the place. People at Big Boy's love me. :)

And now we go back to my life. I'm applying at Mickey Shore's automotive electronics in sales. I'm just going to stick there and see what happens. There's all sorts of plans with people that I can finally move ahead with, and not worry about any principals being left behind. I LOVE YOU ALL! Thanks for being my friends!
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FINALLY!!!!! [Aug. 10th, 2005|12:42 pm]
Ok, after 2.5 months of trying to get my things, having to result in legal action as the consequences of not returning my property, valued at over &1,500, she is on her way to the area now... FINALLY! It took all that to get her here. She ended up marrying Noah after dating him for a month and for some reason it didn't occur to him that her actions effect him as well, especially when it comes to a lawsuit. Yes, I said that... Jessica... MARRIED... all while seeing another girl on the side. Unbelieveable isn't it? Yeah she's crazy but who cares, she isn't going to be contacting me or my family anymore cause I'll slap a restraining order on her. I know that she won't, but just in case I have to relay that message... I don't talk to crazy people, especially uncooperative ones.

I found out all this through her step-family and friends, who seem to have taken a liking to me and the way my family treated her during our time. They decided to share this knowledge and I'm glad they did, because I don't really have anything against Noah except for not having the balls to stand up for himself. He hates how Jess is seeing girls on the side but won't say anything. At least I wasn't that big of a pushover.

Now that I think about it, Jess did mention marriage several times during our relationship and seemed to only say "I'll wait too," when I said that after she gets in school and we see how things go I'll propose. Guess she changed all her plans again. Flighty as usual I guess, sometimes things don't change, they only get worse.

I'm already beginning to feel this endless weight being lifted off of me... CLOSEURE!!! I haven't felt this good since I first accepted Christ. It's all coming to an end now, hopefully she has everything on the list so I can truely cut this off.

Take care everyone, wish me luck, pray, whatever you can do to give me some support behind this, cause it is a tough thing to do. I wish everyone out there the best of luck in life, and hope that no one else falls in this same situation. I know what my friends are going through because of this, and I don't want to go through anything like this EVER again. :) I'll update again when I get back, Peace.
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Just so fucking funny... [Aug. 7th, 2005|10:53 pm]
... and I don't know why. *dies laughing*


Thanks a ton Drew for pointing this site out to me, I check it every day and it cracks me up. I don't really understand this vid but it's hilarious.
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A few things... [Jul. 31st, 2005|05:03 pm]
So today I did the lesson for the Highschool kids at church. That was friggin awesome! They actually had a good time and payed attention to me! You have no idea how good that made me feel when they actually talked about the things I was teaching after the class was over. It moved me, it really did. Maybe this is a calling? I don't know. I do know that I'm not the Bass Guitarist for the church. Yup, I'm back in it again. That and they want me to do some video work in preperation for their new system they're going to get. I'm kind've nervous, (as usual,) and excited at the same time. I'm really getting into this and I feel really good about it. It's going to be a tough transition, but I know I can do it. I'm becoming more and more "Christian" as time goes by, and I hate to say this, but it's effecting me. I'm calling on verses and teachings as I talk to people, but I'm afraid to say anything cause it'll scare my friends. I guess that's one way to find out who your true friends are, right? LoL!

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I'll try updating again soon. Hopefully it'll be lighthearted and upbeat. Later.
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From the wisdom of www.intellectualwhores.com [Jul. 29th, 2005|04:42 am]
Scenario 1: Tom meets Jane. She's pretty and seems interesting to talk to. Tom and Jane start haging out and talking more and more. Tom develops an attraction to Jane, and one day tries to kiss her. Jane tell Tom she doesn't think of him that way and she wants to remain friends. The next few weeks contact between the two falls off. Jane starts fucking an outlaw biker.

Ladder Theory Explanation: Tom met Jane. Tom was immediately placed on the friends ladder. Tom didn't know this. Tom tried to jump ladders. Jane kicked Tom in the head rather than let him on and sent him hurtling to the Abyss below. The oulaw biker was not on her friends ladder (they never are) but rather on her good ladder.

Scenario 2: Tom meets Jane. She's cute and seems smart. After an appropriate amount of time he asks her out on a date. She acccepts and they have what seems to be a perfectly nice date. Tom thinks he has a chance with Jane. He asks her out again. She says no, either explicitly or by never returning his phone call. Tom has no idea what the Hell just happened. Jane starts fucking an unemployed alcoholic.

Ladder Theory Explanation: Jane misrepresented which ladder Tom was on. He thought he was on the good ladder because of her acceptance of the date. Mistake. This led to an unintentional ladder jump. He was kicked into the Abyss. In this situation, Jane often wants to stay friends becasue you are so interesting and funny or some shit like that. If this happens you are most likely an Intellectual Whore. I'm sorry. This is most likely to be a ninja-bitch.

Scenario 3: A girl says any of the following to you:

"You're like a brother to me"
"You're like a big teddy bear"
"I feel like I can talk to you about anything"
"You're so nice"
"Can you help me with my homework"

Ladder Theory Explanation: You are on the friends ladder. So Sorry.

You can see that a lot of problems can be avoided(though sadly not problem two) by declaring as soon as possible to a girl that you will not be friends under any circumstances. You can explain that she is too attractive or you can be blunt and say you don't want to bend your "friends" over a table and fuck them, but would rather play poker and go to the races with them, thus disqualifying her from friendship. As long as you are clear. This may scare a girl away. But if it does what would you want with such a skittish little twit anyway?

(Whoever the fuck wrote this should be given an award.)
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Stoled from Twitchy [Jul. 25th, 2005|03:25 am]
John Top
Top Shelf



My Nose
My Lips
My Eyebrows

It stops about there bug it you dig really far back German.

******** Females (Censored to prevent hostility.)


Sleeping Shorts

The Eels
Green Day

God Damned Right - Eels
Push It - Static X
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day


TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
I dated a 14 year old
I hate underwear shopping
I had sex for over 5 hours in one "session"
(Try to guess which one's false, I dare you.)



Go to a bar/club
Start a life in Florida
Go chill with someone (anyone) else



Sky Surfing
Have kids (with someone else of course)
Make a movie

I'm "sensative"
When I fight back verbally, it hurts emotionally.
I don't mind cooking, cleaning, and doing the laundry. (Had to put that in there for sexism points... I don't have many.)

I sniff my clothes before I wear them
Don't touch my car unless I say so :P
Junkfood > Healthy Food
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This guy is alot like me... [Jul. 25th, 2005|03:18 am]
Ok, so this is a breakup video... but not just ANY video! It reminds me alot of something I should do sometime soon. I laughed soooo hard.

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Colin and Mary's wedding was tonight... [Jul. 23rd, 2005|11:32 pm]
and I caught the garter on accident...

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Shit. What do I do now?
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Survey [Jul. 19th, 2005|05:28 am]
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I'm going to hell... [Jul. 19th, 2005|05:13 am]
Raw score: 85%
There's a special place in Hell for you: the basement penthouse. You scored the nastiest possible on the Sexual Hell Test. You have no sexual restraint whatsoever. You'll take pleasure however you can get it, and my guess is you get it a lot. If for some reason you don't right now, you will soon, as people in your category only tend to spiral down ever deeper into the abyss of carnality and delicious sin. Congratulations.

I, personally, think that this category is the best. Paradoxically, sexual liberation and indulgence can only bring you closer to purity and honesty.

AVOID: all but level 3 hellions like yourself. You wouldn't want to ruin anyone, now would you?

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 79% on hellish
Link: The Sexual HELL Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid
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Stoled [Jul. 15th, 2005|07:02 pm]

Which Family Guy character are you?


Anyways, I'm going to Cedar Point to chaperone some high school and Jr highers tomorrow for the church. It's going to be interesting, I'll tell you that much. Hopefully I won't be stuck with the group of pussy kids and they'll take me on the dragster a couple times. Fun stuff. We'll see though. I'll update on more when I get back.
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This is the goodsauce. [Jul. 14th, 2005|12:27 pm]

Funny shit, Tae Kwon Leap. "Boot to the head."
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Rave Force unite! [Jul. 11th, 2005|07:17 pm]
Ok, picture raving superheros.... their only weakness is responsibility.


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HAHAHA [Jul. 11th, 2005|05:53 pm]
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I don't wanna. [Jul. 11th, 2005|04:32 am]
*stab to the face*
*kick the the head*

*runs away*

That about sums up alot of how I feel. Me and my brother are dorking it up right now. Fucking home alone and nothing to do. Put out maybe 10 apps this past week, hopefully one of those sorry ass places will call me. Usual is happening, cept I didn't have the heart to remind my dad that his computer is still missing after the week he mentioned. Who know she could be a bitch to somone who did nothing but fed her and let her sleep in his house? Not talking about me, but my father. He's getting alot of abuse out of this too it seems. That girl just doesn't know when to stop fucking with people and do the right thing. Guess the drugs got to her head or something, I dunno, she just won't let it end the easy way and has to let it all drag on, getting everyone involved more than they need to be.

Went shopping today and bought myself a "workout" outfit for DDR/ITG'ing and just chillin around. Also picked up a nice shirt. Tried giving Sara a call but her ass wasn't home, I'll give her a call again tomorrow. Come to think of it, isn't she in town today? Damnit, I need to get ahold of that girl.

I saw Drew late last week, nothing's really changed with him except he seems a little, lighter? I don't know how to really describe it but he's changed for the good. I think Jessa's doing good for him, wether he knows it or not. Colin and Mary are getting married soon and I can't wait for that. Kind've going psycho just waiting for the 23rd so I can wave goodbye to a couple of friends and say hello to another family out there. Speaking of which, I don't think the world is ready for any little duplicates of either of them running around just yet.

I need to get out sometime this week and just hit a bar or something. Oh, maybe not. I forgot about all the goodies my mom never drank that she bought when we went up north. Pint of Jager, Pint of Captains, Pint of Raspberry Vodka. It's all good. Nice and warm feeling too. Check ya'll later!
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OMG! [Jul. 9th, 2005|03:25 am]
T_T Hot chicks everywhere!

"Isn't being single great?" - Brian
"Yeah, I guess." - John
"I really miss those days sometimes." - Brian
"What was that Brian?" - Brian's Wife
"Nothing Dear!" - Brian
"We have a term for that in gamer land." - John
"What's that?" - Brian
"Owned" - John

So, I figure out that things have gone to shit because someone else was living with me. I'm having trouble finding ANYTHING of mine that I'm looking for. That and my dad's getting pissed that he still hasn't gotten any word back yet about his computer. On top of everything happening, there's all these chicks everywhere around me! What the hell? When did this all happen? Where have I been the past 23 years? Were they always there or have I just been blind? SOOO many questions, one answer...


I haven't spent a whole day at home since I've been back, and there's more to come. I'm fighting to get a dinky part time job just for some extra spending money, cause I figure that's all I really need right now. I'm semi-back to my normal self, plus being slightly (alot) more extroverted compared to what I used to be, and I think that drives people up a wall. The John they know is now talkative, especially after having people right by him who wouldn't give him the time of day. Guess that helped bring me out a little. Who says bad things don't bring the good?
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I love ascii art! [Jul. 8th, 2005|03:22 am]
,|,,(*_*),,|, Yay!
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Wow. [Jul. 7th, 2005|01:54 am]
Hey Sara, Got you message and yes, I'll plan on heading out there some time to spend some time with you, I'll give you a call soon I promise. This vacation just threw me completely for a loop once I got back and me and my dad are fighting with my ex to get, mainly his, and my, things back. It's not really that difficult she's just being stubborn.

Geauga Lake was a blast, I met a ton of cool people and was way more relaxed and laid back than I have EVER been in my life. Right now I'm actually trying to find a way to head back there to hang out with some of them cause we got along so well. Strange how being nice ends up being more of a blessing than a curse socially, I just had to learn how to manage it better.

On top of that I have to head up north at the end of the month and go visit some more people. I think I enjoy being a social butterfly like this. It's quite interesting. In August, I'm heading down to Florida for a week and spending time with one of my friends, Jon, and looking for some jobs/places to stay while I'm there. If I find something, cool, if I don't, damn.

On the other hand... jobs. I think I kind've need one of those. :) My funds are getting rather low from my last contract job and I really don't want to do the norm anymore. I'm looking for something different but not sure what. One thing that suprised me today was Mark. He said he's never seen me this sociable before. I've always been an anti-social type. What happened to me? I don't think I changed at all, and I feel happier, but wtf? I was anti-social?

Oh well, tomorrow's another day and I guess I'll have to see what happens.
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I hate what my friends dig up sometimes. [Jul. 1st, 2005|06:54 am]
So my friends from Farmington decided to do a little scouting... I wish they would've left me in the dark. Here's what they found...

"How the hell am I so GREAT at meeting all the nice guys with the biggest fucking problems EVER Like John the ex, was great...but my GOD I cant fucking stand how much like a girl he is. I swear he is more emotionally attached to me than I will ever be able to be to someone that I love the most most most in my entire life. I think its because I took his virginity...but maybe its just cause he's absolutely fucking insane..."

I'd rather talk about problems than let them fester... that's so girl like.

I'm not emotionally attached anymore, it's more of "I keep finding out that there's lies upon lies, and mistrust upon mistrust" which drives me up a wall.

If it helps at all, I regret losing my virginity and would like it back, it wasn't worth it. Even Colin said that it's harsh for me to feel that way, but I do.

Thinking that maybe since this was both of our longest and supposedly most meaningful relationship ever, expecting a little more kindness than the angst that has been directed towards me for no reason whatsoever for the past 3 months, yes, that DOES make me insane to feel like I've been dupped. Wow.

Sorry to make this public but... touche. I've been beaten.

"I was seeing someone online and was supposed to go and meet them like...a week ago...but then other things happened..."

And she said my brother was a dork for having an online G/F. WoW guy from Tenessee named Matt. Before you break up with somone that you've never met in person but you met him ONLINE and gave him the password to a game that you've spend hundreds of hours on, change the password. Even my brother agrees with me on that.

Anywho, I'll probably update again after I get back. Hopefully with more details about the trip than updates about exes who have problems.

P.S. The answer to this...
"And then of course there is the overbearing ex boyfriend who is still madly in love with me to deal with...How the hell do I get his ass off of my back!?"

I'd like to take, "give him his things back" Alex. I haven't been madly in love with you since you've been avoiding me.
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Woot! [Jul. 1st, 2005|02:05 am]
You are a Teenage Muntant Ninja Turtle

You are some really cool turtles. You live in the sewer with a giant rat, eat pizza and fight crime. But that doesn't big us cause you save our city. You are also one of the best cartoons ever. congrats.

Are you a ninja?(pics)

I'm leaving for Geauga Lake tomorrow, see ya'll when I get back monday!

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Why do I always find the shitty ones? [Jun. 29th, 2005|04:04 am]
Ugh, it's the joke again. Due to the excessive amount of sheer stupidity that is surrounding a couple simple issues, the lable is back. With a "friend" like that, I don't need enemies... "You pick the good ones. *snicker*" Yup. Each one gets better and better. I think I'm going to end up killing myself before I get married if this keeps up, or end up having an ulcer by the time I do marry. (Laugh, it's a joke...)

I've been out and about lately, and I'm applying for a lifeguard position out of state. Fuck this place. If I mention anything about going to Florida, that's because my application was accepted, I'm heading down for an interview, and I might not be back for a long time. Hopefully I can get my things back before then.

I'm done here, I'm done with this. I'm done with everything. I'm not exactly in a angry upset mood, I'm just done with kids. It's terrible here. Everyone in Michigan is trapped here, and I'm so close to this central mixing pot of stupidity it's tough to pick out the ones that have more promise than grief. They don't know what they are doing, don't listen to reason, and can't reason themselves.

I don't believe I was ever that indecisive. I even asked my parents that. "You know what you are getting into before you get there. You always have." Maybe that's because of a stable upbringing, surrounding myself people who know where the line was, and never crossing it or venturing too far cause they KNOW it won't produce positive results. When I saw then crossing the line, I warned, then decided to not take part in it, I lost a few friends that way but found better ones later on.

Honestly... Who knows and who cares... I'm not the one destroying kids lives, and I'm sure as hell not contibuting to it.

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HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! [Jun. 29th, 2005|02:46 am]
Got a problem with women? Roofinex will solve all your worries!

(Not for females who are squeemish about the date rape drug.)

Thank you Roofinex, you saved my life.
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Survey time. [Jun. 28th, 2005|10:52 pm]
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Quiz update time!!! [Jun. 28th, 2005|10:38 pm]

Your Slanguage Profile

Aussie Slang: 100%
Canadian Slang: 75%
Prison Slang: 50%
Victorian Slang: 25%
British Slang: 0%
New England Slang: 0%
Southern Slang: 0%

Hmmm, throw another shrimp on the barbie, eh?

My life has been rated:
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Created by bart666

What does this mean?

To quote the BBFC: The R18 category is a special and legally restricted classification primarily for explicit videos of consenting sex between adults. Such videos may be supplied to adults only in licensed sex shops, of which there are currently about 90 in the UK.

Wow... I didn't know I was THAT bad.

You Are Opium!
You like to have fun and enjoy life. Reeeeeally enjoy life. If it isn't fast, loud, or extreme forget it. You value friendship and are loyal and will not hesiste to go off if someone crosses you.

What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?
Stupid friggin ponies...

Ok, next is lots of retarded surveys cause I'm bored.

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*sigh* [Jun. 21st, 2005|11:26 am]
Once again I have been thrust into and out of the darkness, waiting to see what lies ahead. If it's anything like the darkness, I'll give up. Not until I find out what is there though. Not until I try. I am stubborn as hell, I guess, in my own way. I've seen what can be, but I don't know if it is. You know you can find out, but it isn't something that you can do alone.
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